Emotions are my weakness. They leave me feeling vulnerable and cloud my judgment. As a kid, emotion got me into trouble more than once. So, for the majority of my life, I’ve avoided emotion. Usually I just swallow hard and trudge forward. If I keep my mind busy, my heart doesn’t have time to feel.
The thing is, by denying my emotions, I am walking blasphemy. Humans were created in God’s image and that image includes the ability to reason and feel. I’ve come to realize this over the past several months. Instead of hiding from emotions, I’ve started embracing them. I’m far from professional and very much out of practice. I’m learning to feel.
Someone once told me I write with empathy, that not only could they understand how a character felt but my words evoked emotion in them as well. It’s not something I learned, it’s just something I’ve always been able to do. It’s probably my biggest strength in writing.
For as long as I can remember, this made little sense. How can I, someone that views emotion as a weakness, find strength in conveying emotion through my God given ability to communicate?
How can my weakness become my greatest strength?
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness. Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.
2 Corinthians 12:9 (NIV)